Allison

Thu, 18 Jul 2002 00:00:57 GMT

myers briggs says allison is teacher/counselor idealist E/INFJ

in the words of celine dion: allllllll byyyyymyyyyseeeeelllffffff

Wed, 10 Jul 2002 21:45:20 GMT

no one is here
it's nice sometimes
i had to present myself in my class today with some personal collage
i hate public speaking
i was so nervous
my voice was shaking and i couldn't look at anyone
hmmm...i wish i did a better job

i need to get more sleep
i might get another job.... as a hostess
i'm not sure yet
can i handle that?
i may not be hostess material

i won't be able to work 2 jobs during school
hmmmm
this weekend should be eventful
i've got to plan something for emily on friday...for a going-away party thing
saturday i work
saturday night has been designated as phillippa's birthday night
sunday i have to study for a test in my class monday

ps. yoga is different i like it and hate it all at the same time

pss. i like michelle branch's indie album

where is my internet?

Sun, 30 Jun 2002 17:24:05 GMT

no connection
i need a connection
online when i can find it

summer school begins again at 8am
i will learn to interpersonally communicate
and do the downward dog along with other various yoga poses

maybe summer will go by fast when time is managed well

the apt is more empty...i miss nikki already

hey lauren and nikki, can i pretend i live with you sometimes :)

work

Fri, 28 Jun 2002 02:33:51 GMT

the kids i am a nanny for were pretty good today
poor things never see their parents
i'm one of 3 nannies
the parents both work all the time
and when they're not...they're at the movies
they go twice a week...that's a lot of movies
anyway
the 3 year old told me he liked me tonight
that makes me happy

after a stressful afternoon of running around with a drawing in my car
i finally talked to my professor and i will be able to turn it in
i'm scared
i don't want to leave it alone
he better be careful with it
its a picture of my mom

i should get to bed soon
big day in a semi big city tomorrow
a change of scenery will be nice

ouch

Thu, 27 Jun 2002 12:47:40 GMT

i'm up this morning
with an ache in my head
it pounds with my heart beat

my teeth were clinched all night
my forhead wrinkled in strain

i'm not sure what all the worry was about
as i was asleep
but i'm definitely feeling it now

everything must be accomplished before 3pm today
thought i wanted to write
not so much now

Mon, 24 Jun 2002 14:50:41 GMT

today
class
store
milk
drawings
phone battery
return the scariest movie ever

Mon, 24 Jun 2002 14:45:44 GMT

are you troubled by the many faiths that mankind professes? are you lost in the valley of conflicting beliefs? do you think that freedom of heresy is less burdensome than the yoke of submission, and the liberty of dissent safer than the stronghold of acquiescence?
if such be the case, then make beauty your religion, and worship her as your godhead; for she is the visible, manifest and perfect handiwork of God. cast off those who have toyed with godliness as if it were a sham, joining together greed and arrogance; but believe instead in the divinity of beauty that is at once the beginning of your worship of Life, and the source of your hunger of happiness.
-Gibran

I will keep my heart open to light. there are times when the light burns, when it is too bright, or when it is too revealing. somehow, i must accustom myself to the light and learn to look with steadiness at all that it discloses. I will not yeild to the temptation to regard the light in me as being all the light there is. always i will seek to let my steps be guided by such light as i have at any particular moment. even in the darkness i will learn to wait for the light, confident that it will come to cast its shaft across my path at the point of my greatest and most tragic need. because God is the God of the darkness as well as the light, i shall be unafraid of the darkness. i will keep my heart open to truth and light.
-howard thurman

say not 'i have found the truth,' but rather, 'i have found a truth.' -Gibran

Fri, 21 Jun 2002 14:42:26 GMT

i just spent way too long looking around here

lots of drawing today

something's missing

Thu, 20 Jun 2002 02:05:52 GMT

well it happened.
the nipple ring was removed today
no more holes in lefty

i go to the piercing place today to get a larger ring
he takes one look and says "OMIGOD...that's way to small!"
soooo...i think...good thing i'm getting a bigger ring
simple right?
he takes the old small ring out
that hurts
then he begins to insert the new ring
hmmm not going in
lots of pain
he says "this is very odd ....i've never seen this happen"
scary thing to hear a piercer say as he stares at your boob
the hole has closed up.....IN SECONDS
he attempts RE-OPENING
unsuccessful
so the ending ....i have to come back in a month
he'll pierce me for free

apparently i have super human healing powers
at least in my left boob

i'm not sure if i want to go through healing times
and more scaring
it may not be worth it

this makes me sad
it took so long for me to finally get it done (10 monthes and 5 days ago)
and now its gone
just like that
i'm sad...i had an attachment to it
but i feel weird being sad

looking down won't be the same anymore

opening an old journal

Mon, 17 Jun 2002 14:43:56 GMT

hmmm...
i was recently RE-introduced to this live journal thing
it's been a long time
and i don't really know if i like it all that much
i prefer to lurk
and read
not much on opening up these days
**trust issues** hmmm yes
after spending the day at home yesterday
entered my apartment
found an old journal
from this past year
and read
my soundtrack of sad instrumental movie theme songs played
interesting experience
its okay to cry sometimes

well who knows when i'll write here again
i hope NO ONE feels sad or alone today

alright
back to drawing

Tue, 31 Jul 2001 05:26:49 GMT

i will write later...i am tired